Yesterday in church there was a discussion about keeping a journal, specifically a daily journal, and how our posterity is not going to care about what I ate that day and other things along those lines. What they will care about are lessons we learned and experiences that helped our testimonies grow and become stronger. That prompted me to write down about what is going on in our life right now, glamorous or not.
So, we did not get into grad school for fall 2013 like we were originally planning. We did not know that grad school applications were different from college applications, where you send it your admission stuff and get accepted. We learned the annoying way that Michael needs to have a professor "sponsor" him so to speak so he can do their research. We are now taking this approach and contacting various professors at Texas Tech and Montana Tech and keeping our fingers crossed.
In the meantime, we have been trying to figure out what the heck it is we are "supposed" to be doing for our little family. We have considered options that I swore I would never do, i.e. have Michael join the Air Force and I would raise his Military brats. (Not that I call our child/future children brats, I would never do that. That hurt my heart just typing it!) The point is, we both at different times felt that was something we should look into AND we were both okay with it. After following up, we did not feel right about it anymore, so it became a dead end.
The highs and lows of trying to figure out our future have been exhausting and motivating, scary and exciting, super awesome and lame all at the same time. We act upon a prompting and get excited that we may actually be getting some traction towards our future, and it fizzles out. We are really up for anything! I just want to fast forward a few years and see what the crap it is.
Last week, a new opportunity came up that seems almost too good to be true. We would be moving out of Orem, which is bitter sweet, we would be saving a butt load of money, and we would be prepping for grad school. We still have yet to determine if this is the right thing for us, we still have to find out if Michael got the job and if I would still be able to work with my company. It kind of sucks having our life be in control of everyone but us at the moment. BUT, we are excited.
Hopefully we will hear in the next few days if this new option will work out. Through out this whole process, I have learned that Heavenly Father knows much more than I do what is best for me and my little family. He has our best interest at heart and is allowing us to grow and become refined in this process we call life. I have also learned that praying, like really praying and having a conversation with the Lord is one of the best things you can do. Same goes for reading your scriptures. The days we don't do this as a family are significantly not as great as days that we do do these things together.
I am learning that as a mother and a wife, I have a vital role in setting the tone and atmosphere in our home. I don't care if it is old fashioned, but I love being able to try and fulfill this role to the best that I can by incorporating that love and happiness that comes from following Heavenly Father's plan for us.
The End.
